Break up & Goodbye

I love you with all my heart and you felt the same way.
You said you wanted to marry me and I said yes.
We had to be a part for a little bit and I was fine with that.
You came home for Christmas and it was magical.
Then you left for Okinawa, Japan and a piece of my heart went with you.
But then you started doing things that hurt me.
Drinking til your drunk, smoking hookah and falling for another girl.
So I broke up with you, and yet I am still missing you.
My heart is aching for you every minute, every night.
I wanna hate you, but I can't.
I wanna be with you and love you but I can't
Why does life have to be so hard?

This year has come and gone.
One hardship after another, one betrayal and many broken hearts.
A friend to another, no one to trust.
Secrets revealed, heart breaking and a friend lost.
Job lost one after another, family crying in worry and pain.
Depression comes, not eating, not sleeping, wanting to leave and give up on life.
All alone in the dark, hearing noises coming from outside.
A former friends calls torturing me.
Afraid to sleep, for they might come again.
Comforting and a loving person brings me to his arms.
He tells me "I'm not so alone."
Still feeling sad and angry inside but knows that I have someone that will never leave to help me.

I thought you loved me, I thought you actually wanted me.
But you did was use me and broke me.
I made you mad because you found out that I was in love with someone else besides you.
You got angry and said "you don't need my love anymore."
I got upset, but now I realize you were just a waste of time.
I wonder why I even loved you in the first place.
I found someone who loves me and cares for me more than you ever did.
So all I have to say now is that were a waste of my time.

Love is so hard, but we need it to live in with this world.
Day by day with breaking hearts.
People that use you for whatever reason that they have.
In the end we say why did I even love you.
All they did was use me then break.
But then their are people in this world that do love you and would do anything for you.
We'll eventually, get over the ones what hurt you.
And find the ones that need you as much as you need them.
Love can be hard but its the best thing in the world.

Confused

You say you love me and yet you kiss other girls.
You were there when I needed you.
and I was there when you needed me.
But when you kiss other girls I usually let it go.
But when I tell you that another guy likes me you go crazy.
So when I get a little jealous you get mad at me.
Then we usually end up fighting and I'm the bad guy.
You don't seem to care, you just want everything your way.
You say you love me, but some days I wonder if you really do or not.
I wonder if you just want me around so someone can hug you, kiss you and tell you its alright.
You said to me that I was the one.
Then we end breaking up and usually in a fight.
Then you get a girlfriend, I'm just so confused.
I want to stay around and wait for you. but times I want to move on.
And find a guy a that will love me.
You say that you love me, but I don't think you meant it.

You say you love me and yet you kiss other girls.
You were there when I needed you.
and I was there when you needed me.
But when you kiss other girls I usually let it go.
But when I tell you that another guy likes me you go crazy.
So when I get a little jealous you get mad at me.
Then we usually end up fighting and I'm the bad guy.
You don't seem to care, you just want everything your way.
You say you love me, but some days I wonder if you really do or not.
I wonder if you just want me around so someone can hug you, kiss you and tell you its alright.
You said to me that I was the one.
Then we end breaking up and usually in a fight.
Then you get a girlfriend, I'm just so confused.
I want to stay around and wait for you. but times I want to move on.
And find a guy a that will love me.
You say that you love me, but I don't think you meant it.

Yesterday we love, Today we part, Tomorrow we move on.
This is the cycle until we find the one, the one who will love us for who we are.
And forgive us for what we did wrong.
But their is always one person who will stick with us through the thick and thin, tough and easy and will always love us no matter what.

hate this right now.
When we're a part.
When we argue and disagree,it hurts even more.
I get jealous from time to time.
When your texting other girls.
I know that their just friends.
I know that you love me.
I hate it when we're texting each other just saying "ya".
I especially hate it when your negative and I'm always the positive one all the time.
I love you to death but life is just so hard.
And its tearing me a part.
It makes me cry when I think that you might leave me one day.
Hopefully that day will never come.

When we were together we love each other very much.
But then something happened we had to part.
And yet we still loved each other.
Then I made a horrible mistake that hurt you really bad.
Which made you not love me anymore.
I'm fixing the wrong and trying to make it right.
I don't know if you still love me or not.
But I still love you and always will and forever.
Whatever you say or whatever you do, you can't make me stop loving you.
We are friends and we'll see each other people.
But no matter who you are or I am with my love for you will always burn.
And it will burn forever.

When we first met, we clicked like that. We became best friends real fast. Back then I trusted you and you trusted me. But during the years you did things that hurt me and I probably did the same. I've been trying to forgive you for the day you said those things to me. I've tried to forget and forgive. But it's been so hard and you keep hurting me. I trusted you and you took advantage of that. That day our friendship changed like a chemical reaction. It will never be the same again. You told my secrets that i didn't want anyone to know. It's hard for me to say "now its over".

I know that you love me.
You know that I love you too.
I'm glad that you are over protective at times.
You do that because you care about me.
When we were a part, I felt like their was no reason for me to live anymore.
The day we parted, you took my heart.
It was fragile and you cherished it like it was the only thing that kept you going in life.
The reason I wouldn't eat anymore was because you made life worth while.
When you left, my light inside of me died.
I went into a depression, no one but you could pull me out.
I felt like I could never be happy again.
But then you came back and I found out that you felt the same way I do.
I can't live without you.
You are my reason life goes on.
The reason why I'm happy and positive most of the time.
Baby I love you so much and I can't wait til I can be with you for the rest of my life and all eternity.

I gave you my heart and I know you'll take care of it.
Time has passed and we're not together.
It huts me as it hurts you.
I know its for the best.
Now its time for me to let you go.
I'm gonna tell you that I Love You So Much.
Goodbye

Your the one who caught my heart from falling
and breaking and putting it back to in place.
Your the one who keeps me me happy and
knows how to make me happy.
Your there when i need you and hold me
tight saying "its gonna be alright".

Your breaking my heart I don't know what to do
I want to get rid of my anger in anyway that I can
I thought I loved you but I guess I was wrong
I'm sick of waiting for you and trying to this relationship together.

In the darkness waiting for him.
Waiting away in fear, waiting of what he'll do to me.
Seconds pass by the moment, seems like hours.
Sitting in the corner, darkness lurking around me.
Waiting for someone to come save me and never bring back here.
Waiting for the point of no return.
Darkness pressing down a upon me.
Feeling scared, hopeless, then sudden hope of a hero to save me from him.
Hoping, looking, waiting.
Waiting in fear.

Summer

Summer has gone, Fall has begun.
From the loved ones you've lost to the warm summer nights to heart aches and pains.
Fall has come, school starts again.
School all day and work all night no social life until Saturday night.
Losing sleep for staying up all night to do homework that's due the next day.
The anger inside me is erupting for friends and family feeling alone and lost then finding your way to a better day.
I've felt ditched by my best friends, been betrayed from the one who i cared about the most.
Summer brings warm weather but it also can be sad and depressing.
Fall turns into winter, winter brings the New Year.
Then next summer hopefully it'll be better.